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It’s not always about prevailing over some

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gigantic strength

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It’s about evolving beyond what

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doesn't work

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opening ourselves to new possibilities

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and let go

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of the person we are no longer

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When I died, Emma went through a natural problem

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mourning period

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or as I prefer to call it transition

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transition from one life to another

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I fell in love again

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continued her journey as a submissive

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and it filled her for a while, but

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it didn't last

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she kept wanting to recreate what she

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I had it with me and when it didn't happen

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she let the relationship go

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she left a lot of things aside

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significantly being a submissive

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the desire just wasn't there anymore, she

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I couldn't accept that there weren't two

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relationships or experiences

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are always the same, she was moving on

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the life she knew

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and it looked like her sister Nadia was

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also

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there is nothing better than hating sex

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I bet I can think of some things I'm

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seriously

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since Rey and I separated

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it was orgasm

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central it's like I can't stop coming

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I've been with him more times

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Broken from what I have across our

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marriage this is really sad, it's the

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best sex I've had in my life

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how sad it is because you waited

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your marriage ends to have him at least

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I'm having this

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oh, and I'm intentionally doing the

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more difficult divorce process

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so that everyone gets angry

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when we are alone

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this looks perfectly healthy, you should

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I heard what I said last week

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It's my house [__] and I'm staying there

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you didn't even like the house when

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you moved

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lots of windows, lots of sunlight

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you've been complaining for the last five years

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and you think you deserve to live in it

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I'm sorry, I don't want to uproot our

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child

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our son Rey or have you forgotten

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about her and all that

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Of course not, Nadia, but not you

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have a job

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and how will you afford to live

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in it I will get roommates

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let's split the mortgage and besides I

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get alimony and alimony, oh, really

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how much alimony do you think you have

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I will make it

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50 I get 50

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and you will probably spend it all

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too expensive

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trash designer [__] sheets and

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[__] I have these boxes [__]

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curtains because I couldn't take it

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windows

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and I can spend your money however I want

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I want you to hear yourself

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what's yours is mine, remember, wow

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what happened to you I don't know

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wedding

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I thought you said you couldn't stab me

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more

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hum

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hum

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hum

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oh [__]

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I can hit you

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me

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oh my god

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oh

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oh

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oh my god

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oh

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[__]

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oh my god

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oh yes

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yes

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oh my god

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oh my god, yes

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oh my god

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oh my god

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god

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ah [__] you, I know you like it when they

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do it

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oh my god

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Right there, my God

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oh my god, I'm going to make myself cum

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oh my god

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I want you to [__] me

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oh my god

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oh my god, the [__] he's right there

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yes, there yes

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yes

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oh my god

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oh my god

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oh

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oh my god

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oh my god

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oh my god

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yes

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my god

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oh

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oh

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my god

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oh

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oh

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oh

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oh my god

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he's [__] [__] me right there baby

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yes, oh

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oh my friend, he [ __ ] got that right [ __ ]

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it's so

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good, yes

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oh my god

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right there

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all over

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oh yes

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oh my god oh [__]

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hum

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you will

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He still sees you, it's no small feat

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given how difficult you can be

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Yeah, well I'm not going back with him

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ok, it's better to be alone anyway

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Plus I got you now, nadia, that's

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just temporary

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until you recover

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oh, and I forgot to let you know if you see one

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girl wearing everything

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black and acting kinda weird, that's

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Mariah, the other roommate

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the other roommate yes, I can't afford it

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this place without two roommates

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Don't worry you won't even notice her

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but Emma knew she was there

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death metal music

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for the clothes she left in the dryer

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days on end

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and the male visitors laughing in the

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late hours of the night

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Emma never saw Mariah, she was just

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this invisible presence keeping her

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company

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while most people would have been

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irritated by the lack of silence

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Emma liked that, Mariah was like a

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her companion

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even though the two had never met, but

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It was just a matter of time before

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fate or the universe or something

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put them together

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tell mom I said hey I'm coming but you

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really should come

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We can have a girls weekend, I don't need it

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a girls weekend

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and I definitely don't need to see mom

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you don't need anyone Emma

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make sure the house doesn't burn down while

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I went, I will

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oh, and Isabelle is going to stay with Ray for the

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weekend, so don't forget to call me if

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anything bad happens

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like the house caught fire, bye

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have fun

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that afternoon the house was

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strangely quiet

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no sound of Mariah's music or sex

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echoing through the hallways

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it was just Emma alone with her thoughts

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hello

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our level of discretion is my decision

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it's not yours

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I control what you do

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how you act what you say

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what do you think for this relationship

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work

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we need to surrender

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just one little thing I'd like you to do

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use tonight

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this place is huge, hello

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Hello, what [__] are you doing, I have

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roommates

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I just wanted to hear my echo

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so what do you like everything like what

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let's start thinking: oh, you're naughty

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girl, huh

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it's me

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yes

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keep equipping me

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hum

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is

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god

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oh

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I want you to guide me with your fingers

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take my [__] knife

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me

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please

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it's so [__] hot

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oh god

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me

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hum

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I want you to suck my throat

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hum

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oh

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my throat

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charlatan

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hum

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make me

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oh

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oh

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oh my god, it's going to look so [__]

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good

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oh

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please

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hum

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oh

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oh

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hum

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I am

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is

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look at this

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oh my god

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hum

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please

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oh my god, yes

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me

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oh

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please

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oh

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oh

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my god

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so where is your shower, no there are no showers

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What do you mean by a bath we are not

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dating guy

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no shower, I've never had one

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girl and she at least didn't let me have

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a bath

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well now you have

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spanking suffocating

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handcuffs, it's okay

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but a shower is out of the question, beautiful

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very nice to meet you

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later

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enjoy the show

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I was just, uh, I'm sorry

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I'm sorry, I only know if you are

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I will try to spy on someone you can

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I want to do a better job, Adam

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sneaking into their room, I wasn't spying

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In you I was just, it's okay

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I wasn't eavesdropping you know it's just

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we never met before

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and it's a little strange, you know

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and Mariah now we know each other

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I'm not sure if Emma has ever met anyone

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as well as Mariah

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they were completely opposite in many

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ways and yet

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Emma liked her, it was the first time in

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It's been a long time since Emma really smiled

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smiled at the absurdity of what had happened

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happened

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smiled remembering the insensitivity of

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Mariah towards her date

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the brazen and unapologetic way in which

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this young girl

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approached life and then of course she

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smiled knowing there was another girl

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outside

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twist activated

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00:43:38,839 --> 00:43:40,470
then

301
00:43:48,319 --> 00:43:50,640
If you're worried I'm a psychopath, you

302
00:43:50,640 --> 00:43:55,839
should be

303
00:43:56,160 --> 00:43:58,640
Sorry, I invaded your privacy yesterday

304
00:43:58,640 --> 00:44:01,280
it's okay

305
00:44:07,280 --> 00:44:11,359
oh, this is nothing

306
00:44:11,359 --> 00:44:12,800
you should see the kind of bruise I

307
00:44:12,800 --> 00:44:15,119
come home with

308
00:44:15,119 --> 00:44:18,480
rope actually works much better

309
00:44:18,480 --> 00:44:22,319
with what doesn't do the same trick

310
00:44:22,319 --> 00:44:23,680
handcuffs and

311
00:44:23,680 --> 00:44:35,920
It's much safer as you know that

312
00:44:35,920 --> 00:44:36,640
this is

313
00:44:36,640 --> 00:44:39,680
all your things

314
00:44:40,160 --> 00:44:43,310
you you used all these things

315
00:44:45,040 --> 00:44:49,040
at one point or another over the years

316
00:44:49,040 --> 00:44:52,480
most of them were kips

317
00:44:53,359 --> 00:44:57,920
of whom Jesus

318
00:44:57,920 --> 00:45:00,800
I thought you were like that

319
00:45:01,119 --> 00:45:04,319
I never thought you were like this

320
00:45:04,319 --> 00:45:07,520
That's an electric wand I've heard of

321
00:45:07,520 --> 00:45:08,720
these things

322
00:45:08,720 --> 00:45:12,640
I just never people really use

323
00:45:12,640 --> 00:45:13,440
these

324
00:45:13,440 --> 00:45:16,800
Of course, but it's not about the pain

325
00:45:16,800 --> 00:45:19,599
It's more about exercise and control and

326
00:45:19,599 --> 00:45:21,380
anticipation

327
00:45:24,720 --> 00:45:26,720
That's a butt plug you'll want

328
00:45:26,720 --> 00:45:27,920
to warm it up

329
00:45:27,920 --> 00:45:30,960
how do you know about these things

330
00:45:30,960 --> 00:45:34,079
Can I borrow something, I mean

331
00:45:34,079 --> 00:45:36,240
not the butt plug that would be weird

332
00:45:36,240 --> 00:45:37,440
but

333
00:45:37,440 --> 00:45:41,040
I really like crazy [__] too

334
00:45:41,040 --> 00:45:44,400
so we have something in common roommate

335
00:45:44,400 --> 00:45:48,160
I don't like violent crazy things [__]

336
00:45:48,560 --> 00:45:50,800
electrocuting people is beautiful [__]

337
00:45:50,800 --> 00:45:52,240
crazy

338
00:45:52,240 --> 00:45:54,350
no, it's psychological

339
00:45:56,480 --> 00:45:59,040
That's what I used to do

340
00:45:59,040 --> 00:46:00,880
be

341
00:46:00,880 --> 00:46:04,079
It's just not exciting for me right now

342
00:46:04,079 --> 00:46:07,280
These things just don't discourage Emma

343
00:46:07,280 --> 00:46:10,160
well that did it for me

344
00:46:11,520 --> 00:46:14,079
After that day Mariah spent less time

345
00:46:14,079 --> 00:46:15,359
hiding in her room

346
00:46:15,359 --> 00:46:17,119
and more time looking for opportunities

347
00:46:17,119 --> 00:46:20,240
to connect with ema

348
00:46:27,119 --> 00:46:29,760
Mariah felt an affinity with her, although

349
00:46:29,760 --> 00:46:31,520
Emma did everything to keep her under control

350
00:46:31,520 --> 00:46:32,560
length

351
00:46:32,560 --> 00:46:34,240
but avoiding talking to anyone

352
00:46:34,240 --> 00:46:35,680
who lives at the end of the hall

353
00:46:35,680 --> 00:46:37,760
It's practically impossible what you are

354
00:46:37,760 --> 00:46:39,280
guys cooking

355
00:46:39,280 --> 00:46:41,359
oh, actually I was going to make one

356
00:46:41,359 --> 00:46:43,359
cucumber salad and eventually Emma would

357
00:46:43,359 --> 00:46:45,200
have to accept the fact that

358
00:46:45,200 --> 00:46:45,920
Mariah

359
00:46:45,920 --> 00:46:48,720
in a way it reminded her of her old

360
00:46:48,720 --> 00:46:49,920
myself

361
00:46:49,920 --> 00:46:51,599
I'm sorry if I crossed the line, no

362
00:46:51,599 --> 00:46:52,960
seems like the kind of person who does

363
00:46:52,960 --> 00:46:53,680
It's a habit

364
00:46:53,680 --> 00:46:57,680
to apologize, I'm not

365
00:46:57,680 --> 00:47:01,359
but I like the way you look

366
00:47:01,359 --> 00:47:03,520
I know you're probably ashamed of me

367
00:47:03,520 --> 00:47:05,680
I'm not ashamed

368
00:47:05,680 --> 00:47:09,359
ok, that was me a long time ago and I'm

369
00:47:09,359 --> 00:47:11,359
this person is no longer

370
00:47:11,359 --> 00:47:13,119
so why do you still have all this

371
00:47:13,119 --> 00:47:14,560
things

372
00:47:14,560 --> 00:47:17,839
has sentimental value

373
00:47:18,800 --> 00:47:20,160
if you have overcome this part of your

374
00:47:20,160 --> 00:47:24,000
Life or not, I'm just getting into it

375
00:47:24,000 --> 00:47:28,240
and I would like you to teach me

376
00:47:28,240 --> 00:47:32,480
teach you what bdsm is

377
00:47:32,480 --> 00:47:34,640
all this and what do you want me to do

378
00:47:34,640 --> 00:47:35,520
teach you

379
00:47:35,520 --> 00:47:38,319
how to tie a rope how to use a butt plug

380
00:47:38,319 --> 00:47:39,040
no

381
00:47:39,040 --> 00:47:42,400
the psychological part I want to explore

382
00:47:42,400 --> 00:47:45,440
try and learn from

383
00:47:45,440 --> 00:47:48,480
someone who clearly knows

384
00:47:51,760 --> 00:47:53,119
you know that submissives are usually not the

385
00:47:53,119 --> 00:47:55,599
teacher then you are submissive

386
00:47:55,599 --> 00:47:58,640
Well I used to be but I'm not anymore

387
00:47:58,640 --> 00:48:02,240
but you were, oh, that's amazing

388
00:48:02,240 --> 00:48:05,599
teach me that I urgently need discipline

389
00:48:05,599 --> 00:48:06,720
and

390
00:48:06,720 --> 00:48:09,040
I want to learn right, it's not just one

391
00:48:09,040 --> 00:48:11,200
two hour conversation

392
00:48:11,200 --> 00:48:14,160
It's a matter of practice and training, I will

393
00:48:14,160 --> 00:48:15,280
train

394
00:48:15,280 --> 00:48:16,740
I will practice

395
00:48:18,800 --> 00:48:21,280
why do you want this so much because I

396
00:48:21,280 --> 00:48:22,559
do

397
00:48:22,559 --> 00:48:26,880
It's who I am, it's what I want

398
00:48:26,880 --> 00:48:30,079
and you think you are submissive yes like

399
00:48:30,079 --> 00:48:35,839
As surprising as this may be

400
00:48:39,280 --> 00:48:41,920
wow, I can't believe a place like this

401
00:48:41,920 --> 00:48:43,680
really exists

402
00:48:43,680 --> 00:48:47,040
I mean, I've seen pictures man

403
00:48:47,040 --> 00:48:48,890
this is legit

404
00:48:52,480 --> 00:48:54,820
you stick your head in there

405
00:48:57,680 --> 00:48:59,520
Are you here for the shock value or do

406
00:48:59,520 --> 00:49:02,160
Do you have any real interest

407
00:49:02,160 --> 00:49:04,960
interest, but I mean, come on, let's stay

408
00:49:04,960 --> 00:49:07,520
honestly these things are shocking

409
00:49:07,520 --> 00:49:09,520
For as long as I can remember, I have

410
00:49:09,520 --> 00:49:11,839
I always wanted something like this

411
00:49:11,839 --> 00:49:16,319
what a dungeon without experience

412
00:49:16,319 --> 00:49:19,839
something that excites and scares me

413
00:49:19,839 --> 00:49:24,240
all in the same breath what turns you on

414
00:49:24,240 --> 00:49:25,760
not knowing what comes next

415
00:49:27,599 --> 00:49:30,400
so what part scares you without knowing

416
00:49:30,400 --> 00:49:32,960
what comes next

417
00:49:32,960 --> 00:49:35,839
every guy I've ever dated

418
00:49:35,839 --> 00:49:37,680
I don't understand

419
00:49:37,680 --> 00:49:39,440
as soon as they find out that I like kink

420
00:49:39,440 --> 00:49:41,359
they just go straight to my ass and

421
00:49:41,359 --> 00:49:43,599
start beating him up, they just don't

422
00:49:43,599 --> 00:49:44,640
realize

423
00:49:44,640 --> 00:49:46,720
activation is the moment before this

424
00:49:46,720 --> 00:49:48,160
thing

425
00:49:48,160 --> 00:49:51,760
Yes, not every guy will know how

426
00:49:51,760 --> 00:49:55,200
properly dominate a woman

427
00:49:56,839 --> 00:49:59,839
no

428
00:50:02,240 --> 00:50:06,480
Let's find a good one for you, find me what

429
00:50:06,480 --> 00:50:11,040
dominant, dominant, but until then

430
00:50:11,040 --> 00:50:14,160
I will fill my

431
00:50:14,160 --> 00:50:18,720
temporary dominant temporary

432
00:50:18,720 --> 00:50:22,240
Emma lover, oh man, that's what I am

433
00:50:22,240 --> 00:50:23,440
I will call you

434
00:50:23,440 --> 00:50:25,359
That's the rule while we're working

435
00:50:25,359 --> 00:50:26,800
together

436
00:50:26,800 --> 00:50:29,920
sir sema this will be the first

437
00:50:29,920 --> 00:50:41,839
and the only rule you make

438
00:50:42,880 --> 00:50:45,280
submitting is not just obeying, it is

439
00:50:45,280 --> 00:50:46,960
about surrender

440
00:50:46,960 --> 00:50:50,100
leaving aside all the necessities you need

441
00:50:52,839 --> 00:50:54,400
control

442
00:50:59,200 --> 00:51:01,680
limitations will change as you change

443
00:51:01,680 --> 00:51:03,119
what scares you today

444
00:51:03,119 --> 00:51:09,839
maybe not tomorrow

445
00:51:12,960 --> 00:51:16,510
Let me down, you're using your safeword

446
00:51:21,200 --> 00:51:24,880
good girl, safe words know when to use

447
00:51:24,880 --> 00:51:26,559
your

448
00:51:26,559 --> 00:51:28,640
resist the compulsion you may feel to

449
00:51:28,640 --> 00:51:29,680
run and use it

450
00:51:29,680 --> 00:51:32,880
pineapple pineapple

451
00:51:32,880 --> 00:51:34,720
know the difference between what is

452
00:51:34,720 --> 00:51:36,640
not difficult and what is simply

453
00:51:36,640 --> 00:51:41,119
uncomfortable, the goal is to remain open

454
00:51:41,119 --> 00:51:44,800
and enjoy every day every moment every fear

455
00:51:44,800 --> 00:51:50,810
every desire as it comes

456
00:51:56,160 --> 00:51:58,960
and refrain from judging no matter what

457
00:51:58,960 --> 00:52:01,200
how much you disagree with the task

458
00:52:01,200 --> 00:52:04,400
cute dress

459
00:52:04,400 --> 00:52:08,240
arms up practice

460
00:52:08,240 --> 00:52:10,559
whenever you can, open your legs

461
00:52:10,559 --> 00:52:12,240
allow your practice to become part of

462
00:52:12,240 --> 00:52:12,800
you

463
00:52:12,800 --> 00:52:16,720
an extension of yourself, straighten your

464
00:52:16,839 --> 00:52:19,040
chin back

465
00:52:19,040 --> 00:52:20,480
ok slave driver

466
00:52:30,960 --> 00:52:33,680
practice all this the physical

467
00:52:33,680 --> 00:52:34,640
mental

468
00:52:34,640 --> 00:52:36,640
do it anywhere and everywhere you

469
00:52:36,640 --> 00:52:39,920
can impressive

470
00:52:39,920 --> 00:52:40,950
now try six

471
00:52:47,040 --> 00:52:49,680
know your body well in which part

472
00:52:49,680 --> 00:52:51,200
your body responds more

473
00:52:51,200 --> 00:52:53,680
intensive to play, bring yourself to the

474
00:52:53,680 --> 00:52:55,119
verge of an orgasm

475
00:52:55,119 --> 00:52:58,720
and then deny yourself the pleasure of

476
00:52:58,839 --> 00:53:00,300
finishing

477
00:53:10,400 --> 00:53:12,319
remember that trust is the most

478
00:53:12,319 --> 00:53:14,480
important aspect of any bdsm

479
00:53:14,480 --> 00:53:16,640
relationship

480
00:53:16,640 --> 00:53:19,359
trust must exist or everything else will be

481
00:53:19,359 --> 00:53:21,920
irrelevant

482
00:53:24,640 --> 00:53:27,920
seek perfection in your craft never stop

483
00:53:27,920 --> 00:53:29,599
learning

484
00:53:29,599 --> 00:53:33,599
never stop growing seven

485
00:53:33,599 --> 00:53:35,839
understand that if the punishment seems

486
00:53:35,839 --> 00:53:38,240
a reward

487
00:53:38,240 --> 00:53:41,280
It's not a punishment you'll know when

488
00:53:41,280 --> 00:53:41,850
It's punishment

489
00:53:44,240 --> 00:53:46,480
you will be asked to do things just to

490
00:53:46,480 --> 00:53:47,680
please your domain

491
00:53:47,680 --> 00:53:49,839
These tasks are a way to show your

492
00:53:49,839 --> 00:53:50,800
gratitude

493
00:53:50,800 --> 00:53:52,319
Do you realize we have a wash

494
00:53:52,319 --> 00:53:56,000
right machine, I know

495
00:53:56,000 --> 00:53:57,839
so how is this your only pair of

496
00:53:57,839 --> 00:53:58,990
non-black panties

497
00:54:08,000 --> 00:54:11,520
but most importantly don't crush

498
00:54:11,520 --> 00:54:14,400
find joy in what you are doing when

499
00:54:14,400 --> 00:54:16,160
stops being pleasant

500
00:54:16,160 --> 00:54:18,720
then it's probably not for you anymore

501
00:54:18,720 --> 00:54:24,800
you can relax

502
00:54:24,800 --> 00:54:29,200
so why did you stop with this bdsm thing

503
00:54:29,200 --> 00:54:32,319
well, it wasn't very pleasant anymore

504
00:54:32,319 --> 00:54:34,160
I could never recreate the magic of mine

505
00:54:34,160 --> 00:54:36,079
first relationship

506
00:54:36,079 --> 00:54:38,319
Believe me, I tried whatever happened

507
00:54:38,319 --> 00:54:41,440
with this relationship

508
00:54:42,240 --> 00:54:45,520
well I called him Mr. Frederick

509
00:54:45,520 --> 00:54:48,880
It's funny because he

510
00:54:48,880 --> 00:54:51,040
I always knew I was submissive deep down

511
00:54:51,040 --> 00:54:53,520
even before I met you

512
00:54:53,520 --> 00:54:56,160
I will probably be very disappointed

513
00:54:56,160 --> 00:54:57,920
Now I know I'm not

514
00:54:57,920 --> 00:55:01,599
he likes to be right, maybe he was

515
00:55:01,599 --> 00:55:04,880
right at the time he said it was, but

516
00:55:04,880 --> 00:55:08,400
I've changed a lot since then

517
00:55:12,559 --> 00:55:21,119
back to work

518
00:55:21,119 --> 00:55:24,559
so Ray really wants to come back

519
00:55:24,559 --> 00:55:27,599
Yes, I think it might be a good idea

520
00:55:27,599 --> 00:55:29,760
thought you would take it back

521
00:55:29,760 --> 00:55:33,040
Those are just words anyway, I don't

522
00:55:33,040 --> 00:55:35,200
I want to start dating again

523
00:55:35,200 --> 00:55:36,319
so you will keep it

524
00:55:36,319 --> 00:55:39,359
because you don't want to date yes

525
00:55:39,359 --> 00:55:42,799
But hey, don't worry, you and I can stay

526
00:55:42,799 --> 00:55:46,480
I mean I really want you to continue Nadia

527
00:55:46,480 --> 00:55:48,559
I don't think it's a good idea for us

528
00:55:48,559 --> 00:55:50,559
stay when you and Ray are trying to save

529
00:55:50,559 --> 00:55:51,839
your wedding

530
00:55:51,839 --> 00:55:55,839
why isn't it the perfect distraction

531
00:55:55,839 --> 00:55:57,680
much as Nadia begged Emma to

532
00:55:57,680 --> 00:56:00,079
stay, she and Mariah would move

533
00:56:00,079 --> 00:56:01,760
until the end of the month happening

534
00:56:01,760 --> 00:56:03,599
you staying here won't make it

535
00:56:03,599 --> 00:56:06,319
a lot of difference

536
00:56:09,119 --> 00:56:11,680
was something Mariah feared she would

537
00:56:11,680 --> 00:56:13,440
had become so attached to Emma in the

538
00:56:13,440 --> 00:56:14,640
last months

539
00:56:14,640 --> 00:56:16,319
that the idea of her being out

540
00:56:16,319 --> 00:56:19,440
reach terrified her

541
00:56:19,440 --> 00:56:24,799
permission to speak permission granted

542
00:56:25,680 --> 00:56:30,720
I'm worried about what

543
00:56:30,720 --> 00:56:36,240
this whole arrangement what do you mean

544
00:56:36,240 --> 00:56:39,119
when we move

545
00:56:39,520 --> 00:56:44,000
I will never see you again

546
00:56:44,000 --> 00:56:46,640
you seem to forget it for weeks while

547
00:56:46,640 --> 00:56:48,559
we are living in Nadia

548
00:56:48,559 --> 00:56:51,599
we've never seen each other, that's

549
00:56:51,599 --> 00:56:53,119
different

550
00:56:53,119 --> 00:56:56,240
I like what we're doing now

551
00:56:56,240 --> 00:56:58,960
I want to be close to you, I don't

552
00:56:58,960 --> 00:57:00,160
be close to someone

553
00:57:00,160 --> 00:57:05,200
but I want to be close to you

554
00:57:05,359 --> 00:57:08,720
We'll still see each other, so we can

555
00:57:08,720 --> 00:57:12,400
I still practice

556
00:57:12,400 --> 00:57:14,880
I think this is the right time

557
00:57:14,880 --> 00:57:16,000
to take a step towards things

558
00:57:16,000 --> 00:57:18,400
further

559
00:57:19,040 --> 00:57:21,760
what do you mean

560
00:57:22,880 --> 00:57:25,520
today is the day you meet your first

561
00:57:25,520 --> 00:57:26,240
true

562
00:57:26,240 --> 00:57:31,119
idiot, aren't you my real idiot?

563
00:57:31,119 --> 00:57:34,220
No, I should just stop with Dom's clothes

564
00:57:36,640 --> 00:57:39,440
for this specific task, I want you

565
00:57:39,440 --> 00:57:40,480
remember

566
00:57:40,480 --> 00:57:43,599
some things ok

567
00:57:43,599 --> 00:57:47,200
first your safe word

568
00:57:47,200 --> 00:57:50,720
second pineapple

569
00:57:50,720 --> 00:57:55,680
trust me and third party

570
00:57:55,680 --> 00:57:59,520
remember your senses, my senses

571
00:57:59,520 --> 00:58:02,480
yes, your senses will guide you to the

572
00:58:02,480 --> 00:58:03,599
right guy

573
00:58:03,599 --> 00:58:06,960
the right man, then there is

574
00:58:06,960 --> 00:58:10,480
more than one you can't exactly test

575
00:58:10,480 --> 00:58:13,200
the perfect gift without a few options

576
00:58:13,200 --> 00:58:17,040
you may not [__] no and if you don't find

577
00:58:17,040 --> 00:58:18,400
him today

578
00:58:18,400 --> 00:58:22,559
okay, you go

579
00:58:22,559 --> 00:58:23,680
eventually

580
00:58:28,720 --> 00:58:32,559
gentlemen, can you answer

581
00:58:32,720 --> 00:58:34,960
How will I know which one to choose if I

582
00:58:34,960 --> 00:58:36,000
I can't see

583
00:58:36,000 --> 00:58:41,359
Can't touch, can't see with your mind

584
00:58:41,359 --> 00:58:45,359
touch with the smell of the mouth

585
00:58:45,359 --> 00:58:48,720
like and when you meet someone

586
00:58:48,720 --> 00:58:51,920
it opens something inside you says

587
00:58:51,920 --> 00:58:54,000
me

588
00:58:54,000 --> 00:58:58,000
yes, but how will I know

589
00:58:58,640 --> 00:59:01,520
stop trying to control everything mariah

590
00:59:01,520 --> 00:59:01,839
be

591
00:59:01,839 --> 00:59:05,920
submissive, not a control freak

592
00:59:05,920 --> 00:59:09,200
This is your first real sexual encounter

593
00:59:09,200 --> 00:59:13,839
in a truly submissive role, be present

594
00:59:13,839 --> 00:59:19,839
and enjoy

595
00:59:58,839 --> 01:00:01,490
hum

596
01:00:12,839 --> 01:00:15,839
hum

597
01:00:54,839 --> 01:00:56,230
oh

598
01:01:00,799 --> 01:01:10,360
oh my god

599
01:01:44,319 --> 01:01:53,839
him I want him

600
01:01:54,400 --> 01:01:59,440
you chose wisely I approve

601
01:02:05,039 --> 01:02:09,280
hi, hi

602
01:02:09,440 --> 01:02:12,720
This is Nicholas, you must obey him for

603
01:02:12,720 --> 01:02:14,880
the next half hour

604
01:02:14,880 --> 01:02:18,880
yes ma'am you will try it

605
01:02:18,880 --> 01:02:20,079
something that

606
01:02:20,079 --> 01:02:23,599
you and I have never done it before

607
01:02:23,599 --> 01:02:35,839
Are you ready, yes ma'am

608
01:02:41,520 --> 01:02:44,720
what are you going to do now

609
01:02:44,960 --> 01:02:49,039
you will see

610
01:02:49,039 --> 01:02:52,160
I'll bring you some toys

611
01:02:52,160 --> 01:03:03,119
who will play with your body

612
01:03:03,119 --> 01:03:06,000
you will like them, I want to feel

613
01:03:06,000 --> 01:03:08,640
everything

614
01:03:13,280 --> 01:03:15,520
you want to feel everything you did

615
01:03:15,520 --> 01:03:16,559
forget to say

616
01:03:16,559 --> 01:03:18,670
sir exactly

617
01:03:21,440 --> 01:03:23,280
If you don't call me, sir, it's you

618
01:03:23,280 --> 01:03:24,660
behaving badly

619
01:03:26,559 --> 01:03:31,839
you will be punished

620
01:03:56,839 --> 01:03:59,839
hum

621
01:04:24,839 --> 01:04:27,839
hum

622
01:04:30,799 --> 01:04:34,559
not so fast, my dear

623
01:04:36,480 --> 01:04:40,079
before I go there I have something

624
01:04:40,079 --> 01:04:54,680
prepared for you

625
01:05:08,440 --> 01:05:23,180
oh yes

626
01:05:34,839 --> 01:05:37,220
huh

627
01:06:25,680 --> 01:06:33,839
okay

628
01:06:44,839 --> 01:06:47,530
is

629
01:06:58,839 --> 01:07:00,550
hum

630
01:07:26,839 --> 01:07:28,000
oh

631
01:07:28,000 --> 01:07:30,400
still

632
01:07:34,960 --> 01:07:42,559
oh, it's so wet

633
01:07:42,559 --> 01:07:57,839
you're making me so excited

634
01:08:20,400 --> 01:08:25,839
something more

635
01:08:26,799 --> 01:08:39,839
I have something for you

636
01:08:41,359 --> 01:08:44,239
it's not that easy

637
01:08:45,520 --> 01:08:49,120
what do you say to me, please give me your [__]

638
01:08:49,120 --> 01:08:52,560
I want it in my mouth so fast, so bad

639
01:08:52,560 --> 01:08:54,880
better

640
01:08:54,880 --> 01:09:00,060
much better look at this

641
01:09:04,159 --> 01:09:07,839
wide open

642
01:09:16,719 --> 01:09:21,839
just like that

643
01:09:31,040 --> 01:09:34,590
please, please get up

644
01:09:46,839 --> 01:09:47,939
saint

645
01:10:01,199 --> 01:10:03,600
I want you [__] me, bro, I want you

646
01:10:03,600 --> 01:10:06,239
use my mouth

647
01:10:09,840 --> 01:10:17,840
it's not that easy

648
01:10:28,840 --> 01:10:31,840
oh

649
01:10:42,840 --> 01:10:45,840
what

650
01:10:53,360 --> 01:10:56,320
you've had enough of this for now

651
01:10:56,320 --> 01:11:13,840
be waiting patiently for more

652
01:11:17,199 --> 01:11:21,120
I have more toys for you, but before you go

653
01:11:21,120 --> 01:11:23,520
that's why

654
01:11:25,520 --> 01:11:28,430
I need your hands

655
01:11:33,760 --> 01:11:41,470
let's take this away

656
01:11:52,840 --> 01:11:55,040
oh

657
01:12:06,840 --> 01:12:09,840
oh

658
01:12:20,840 --> 01:12:23,840
huh

659
01:12:28,960 --> 01:12:31,480
I have a request, you don't

660
01:12:34,960 --> 01:12:37,360
a request please I want to feel yours

661
01:12:37,360 --> 01:12:39,100
[__] inside me

662
01:12:40,640 --> 01:12:49,950
I waited so long to do this

663
01:12:52,400 --> 01:13:05,840
please put it inside me please

664
01:13:08,159 --> 01:13:19,520
I want you to use my little

665
01:13:19,520 --> 01:13:21,440
I don't think you wanted it that much

666
01:13:21,440 --> 01:13:23,920
please, please give it to me sir, I want it

667
01:13:23,920 --> 01:13:24,960
it's a shame

668
01:13:24,960 --> 01:13:33,840
my little [__] is crazy

669
01:13:39,600 --> 01:13:41,920
I was feeling every part of you inside

670
01:13:41,920 --> 01:13:43,360
my [__] sir

671
01:13:43,360 --> 01:13:47,840
oh, you made me feel so good

672
01:13:58,840 --> 01:14:01,840
please

673
01:14:12,719 --> 01:14:15,040
please

674
01:14:40,840 --> 01:14:43,840
hum

675
01:14:44,480 --> 01:14:46,880
Yeah, nice and slow, show me what you can

676
01:14:46,880 --> 01:14:57,840
do it with your feet

677
01:15:08,840 --> 01:15:11,679
oh

678
01:15:11,679 --> 01:15:24,010
you forgot something what did you forget

679
01:15:50,159 --> 01:16:07,840
please sir, please, please, I want

680
01:16:18,840 --> 01:16:21,840
please

681
01:16:23,920 --> 01:16:35,840
thank you sir thank you

682
01:16:46,840 --> 01:16:48,890
cool

683
01:17:00,840 --> 01:17:03,840
please

684
01:17:04,400 --> 01:17:17,840
please call me

685
01:17:43,040 --> 01:17:47,440
no, oh, things I told you to write

686
01:17:56,840 --> 01:17:58,560
here

687
01:18:06,159 --> 01:18:12,610
keep stirring

688
01:18:21,760 --> 01:18:26,800
the person needs more punishment yes

689
01:18:36,960 --> 01:18:40,320
I went to see

690
01:18:40,320 --> 01:18:55,840
oh please

691
01:19:05,920 --> 01:19:09,840
thank you thank you

692
01:19:34,840 --> 01:19:37,840
hum

693
01:19:48,840 --> 01:19:51,840
oh

694
01:20:02,840 --> 01:20:05,840
please

695
01:20:16,840 --> 01:20:19,840
hum

696
01:20:41,199 --> 01:20:47,840
no you can

697
01:20:57,040 --> 01:21:00,470
[__] me

698
01:21:23,280 --> 01:21:29,840
thank you

699
01:21:36,239 --> 01:21:43,840
I love you girl

700
01:22:05,120 --> 01:22:07,600
get up

701
01:22:08,320 --> 01:22:11,840
open your legs

702
01:22:36,840 --> 01:22:38,480
right

703
01:22:38,480 --> 01:22:53,840
my god

704
01:23:32,840 --> 01:23:35,840
oh

705
01:23:37,360 --> 01:23:49,840
thank you thank you

706
01:24:00,960 --> 01:24:17,840
give you permission to climb

707
01:24:37,840 --> 01:24:40,080
oh

708
01:24:43,360 --> 01:24:59,840
thank you thank you

709
01:25:10,840 --> 01:25:13,410
oh

710
01:25:25,040 --> 01:25:41,840
and I will stop feeling

711
01:25:52,840 --> 01:25:55,840
yes

712
01:26:02,239 --> 01:26:05,360
I think now it's my turn

713
01:26:06,159 --> 01:26:10,639
I want you to give what you deserve

714
01:26:10,800 --> 01:26:13,760
I want you to [__] that I don't want

715
01:26:13,760 --> 01:26:16,639
you use me until you cum

716
01:26:16,639 --> 01:26:20,840
I forgot to work please come here

717
01:26:20,840 --> 01:26:23,840
come

718
01:26:32,719 --> 01:26:37,840
thanks I think

719
01:26:43,440 --> 01:26:51,840
thank you

720
01:26:59,600 --> 01:27:05,840
thank you

721
01:27:09,920 --> 01:27:19,840
thank you

722
01:27:23,440 --> 01:27:26,560
it's so sweet

723
01:27:26,719 --> 01:27:31,840
thank you sir for my first experience

724
01:27:31,840 --> 01:27:33,310
you're welcome

725
01:27:42,960 --> 01:27:45,920
How will I go back to normal sex?

726
01:27:45,920 --> 01:27:47,760
after that

727
01:27:47,760 --> 01:27:50,560
This is normal, you can just exist

728
01:27:50,560 --> 01:27:52,400
this space

729
01:27:52,400 --> 01:27:56,080
I think he will take care of you since

730
01:27:56,080 --> 01:27:58,320
now on

731
01:27:58,320 --> 01:28:00,719
and you, Ryan, this is never a

732
01:28:00,719 --> 01:28:02,320
permanent arrangement

733
01:28:02,320 --> 01:28:04,880
I'm not a dom and I don't do these things

734
01:28:04,880 --> 01:28:05,679
more

735
01:28:05,679 --> 01:28:08,480
You've been doing these things, yes, that

736
01:28:08,480 --> 01:28:09,600
it was for you

737
01:28:09,600 --> 01:28:12,639
not for me for me

738
01:28:12,639 --> 01:28:15,840
oh ok so you didn't get anything

739
01:28:15,840 --> 01:28:17,520
out of it

740
01:28:17,520 --> 01:28:20,719
I honestly don't believe you, why

741
01:28:20,719 --> 01:28:22,800
you get into this situation if

742
01:28:22,800 --> 01:28:23,520
you were

743
01:28:23,520 --> 01:28:27,040
then I got over it because they seemed complicated

744
01:28:27,040 --> 01:28:30,480
Thank you yes, I'm sorry if it hurts

745
01:28:30,480 --> 01:28:33,040
your feelings

746
01:28:33,040 --> 01:28:36,880
Look, I understand why I was you

747
01:28:36,880 --> 01:28:39,840
years ago and I was very lucky to have

748
01:28:39,840 --> 01:28:40,800
found someone

749
01:28:40,800 --> 01:28:43,440
who understood me and helped me explore

750
01:28:43,440 --> 01:28:44,639
my sexuality

751
01:28:44,639 --> 01:28:46,480
I want this for you too, so now you are

752
01:28:46,480 --> 01:28:48,719
I'm just going to give myself to someone else

753
01:28:48,719 --> 01:28:51,199
this is how it works this is what your

754
01:28:51,199 --> 01:28:53,120
Dom did to you

755
01:28:53,120 --> 01:28:57,360
this is [__] [__]

756
01:28:57,360 --> 01:29:11,840
no, not me, no

757
01:29:17,120 --> 01:29:20,400
Mariah left without saying a word

758
01:29:20,400 --> 01:29:25,140
no note no forwarding address

759
01:29:29,040 --> 01:29:30,960
There's only one last rent check left in the

760
01:29:30,960 --> 01:29:38,800
kitchen counter

761
01:29:38,800 --> 01:29:41,280
Emma tried to track her down to see if she was

762
01:29:41,280 --> 01:29:43,120
ok

763
01:29:43,120 --> 01:29:44,800
but the calls and emails were

764
01:29:44,800 --> 01:29:47,440
not returned

765
01:29:48,719 --> 01:29:51,199
things changed in that chapter

766
01:29:51,199 --> 01:29:54,800
ended was bittersweet for Emma

767
01:29:54,800 --> 01:29:56,400
she found someone she really

768
01:29:56,400 --> 01:29:59,440
connected with someone who needed it

769
01:29:59,440 --> 01:30:01,280
but she wasn't sure what to do

770
01:30:01,280 --> 01:30:03,360
with this you don't need to leave

771
01:30:03,360 --> 01:30:06,880
Emma yes I want

772
01:30:06,880 --> 01:30:09,040
you have your own life to live nadia

773
01:30:09,040 --> 01:30:11,679
and you

774
01:30:11,760 --> 01:30:15,440
I'll be fine, I've always been fine

775
01:30:15,440 --> 01:30:19,199
hey, loaded cars

776
01:30:19,679 --> 01:30:22,719
I want you to be happy, I am

777
01:30:22,719 --> 01:30:24,240
as happy as can be

778
01:30:27,120 --> 01:30:28,800
Don't worry, I'm only 10 years old

779
01:30:28,800 --> 01:30:30,159
minute by car

780
01:30:30,159 --> 01:30:33,120
it seems further away you take care of yourself

781
01:30:33,120 --> 01:30:34,080
Nadia

782
01:30:34,080 --> 01:30:37,820
and who will take care of you I

783
01:30:41,280 --> 01:30:43,199
thanks for doing all the hard work

784
01:30:43,199 --> 01:30:49,840
Alright, that's what a man does

785
01:31:03,120 --> 01:31:05,120
no matter how much we want to stop life

786
01:31:05,120 --> 01:31:06,239
to move forward

787
01:31:06,239 --> 01:31:10,080
We can't change things, people come

788
01:31:10,080 --> 01:31:13,600
they go and we evolve

789
01:31:13,600 --> 01:31:15,360
three months passed until Emma finally

790
01:31:15,360 --> 01:31:17,679
I heard from Mariah

791
01:31:17,679 --> 01:31:20,880
Dear Emma, I thought I'd never speak again

792
01:31:20,880 --> 01:31:22,400
for you again

793
01:31:22,400 --> 01:31:24,320
That's what I would have done if it was

794
01:31:24,320 --> 01:31:25,840
the old me

795
01:31:25,840 --> 01:31:27,440
I would have just run away and found

796
01:31:27,440 --> 01:31:30,239
another guy on Craigslist to hit on me

797
01:31:30,239 --> 01:31:33,760
what did I do by the way

798
01:31:33,760 --> 01:31:36,400
but then all I could think of

799
01:31:36,400 --> 01:31:37,600
it was you

800
01:31:37,600 --> 01:31:39,520
how disappointed would you be that I'm missing

801
01:31:39,520 --> 01:31:40,960
restriction

802
01:31:40,960 --> 01:31:42,960
and then I thought of writing to

803
01:31:42,960 --> 01:31:44,320
apologize and

804
01:31:44,320 --> 01:31:47,360
Also share some things I received from you

805
01:31:47,360 --> 01:31:49,920
Nadia's address

806
01:31:49,920 --> 01:31:52,159
I passed by your house hoping you hadn't

807
01:31:52,159 --> 01:31:53,679
still left

808
01:31:53,679 --> 01:31:56,719
but you are gone

809
01:31:56,719 --> 01:31:59,280
she told me about Mr. Frederick and how

810
01:31:59,280 --> 01:32:00,880
you've never been the same since he

811
01:32:00,880 --> 01:32:02,570
passed away a few years ago

812
01:32:03,920 --> 01:32:06,000
he was the dominant one you told me

813
01:32:06,000 --> 01:32:07,040
right

814
01:32:07,040 --> 01:32:10,080
the one who taught you about bdsm

815
01:32:10,080 --> 01:32:12,400
man who loved you and

816
01:32:12,400 --> 01:32:15,600
I changed you, I think it's important to

817
01:32:15,600 --> 01:32:17,120
you know that

818
01:32:17,120 --> 01:32:20,239
you have been that person for me, you

819
01:32:20,239 --> 01:32:21,920
changed me

820
01:32:21,920 --> 01:32:24,840
I guess in a way you are my lord

821
01:32:24,840 --> 01:32:27,840
Frederick

822
01:32:30,560 --> 01:32:33,760
so thank you, I know you said that

823
01:32:33,760 --> 01:32:35,600
I gave up on BDSM

824
01:32:35,600 --> 01:32:37,440
but I would like you to reconsider and

825
01:32:37,440 --> 01:32:39,679
continue your journey with me

826
01:32:39,679 --> 01:32:41,840
I saw the joy on your face when you were

827
01:32:41,840 --> 01:32:43,040
teaching me

828
01:32:43,040 --> 01:32:45,120
and I don't think you're ready to just

829
01:32:45,120 --> 01:32:46,800
let it all go

830
01:32:46,800 --> 01:32:55,840
please don't let this pass

831
01:33:01,360 --> 01:33:03,360
to move forward you have to

832
01:33:03,360 --> 01:33:06,080
make decisions that move you forward

833
01:33:06,080 --> 01:33:09,920
and this was Emma's, she knew that if she

834
01:33:09,920 --> 01:33:11,600
would put his work as

835
01:33:11,600 --> 01:33:13,360
submissive behind her

836
01:33:13,360 --> 01:33:15,920
she had to give herself one last first

837
01:33:15,920 --> 01:33:17,679
time experience

838
01:33:17,679 --> 01:33:19,679
something she could always have as

839
01:33:19,679 --> 01:33:23,840
your last memory of that life

840
01:33:48,840 --> 01:33:51,840
then

841
01:34:02,840 --> 01:34:05,840
foreigner

842
01:34:16,840 --> 01:34:19,840
oh

843
01:34:30,840 --> 01:34:32,930
hum

844
01:34:44,840 --> 01:34:47,840
hum

845
01:34:58,840 --> 01:35:01,080
hum

846
01:35:26,840 --> 01:35:29,840
hum

847
01:35:54,840 --> 01:35:57,840
hum

848
01:37:04,840 --> 01:37:07,840
hum

849
01:37:18,840 --> 01:37:21,780
hum

850
01:37:32,840 --> 01:37:34,390
me

851
01:38:00,840 --> 01:38:02,260
hum

852
01:38:14,840 --> 01:38:17,840
hum

853
01:38:28,840 --> 01:38:30,730
hum

854
01:38:42,840 --> 01:38:44,530
hum

855
01:39:03,679 --> 01:39:13,840
any sacred desire

856
01:39:38,840 --> 01:39:40,180
oh

857
01:40:06,639 --> 01:40:09,840
let it go

858
01:40:27,040 --> 01:40:37,840
thank you

859
01:40:48,840 --> 01:40:51,840
hum

860
01:41:13,360 --> 01:41:19,480
thank you

861
01:41:30,840 --> 01:41:47,840
hmm thank you

862
01:41:58,639 --> 01:42:15,840
Do you want him to [__] your eyes

863
01:42:40,840 --> 01:42:42,150
hum

864
01:44:04,840 --> 01:44:07,840
oh

865
01:44:18,840 --> 01:44:21,840
me

866
01:44:46,840 --> 01:44:49,070
oh

867
01:45:14,840 --> 01:45:17,840
hum

868
01:45:28,840 --> 01:45:31,330
oh

869
01:46:38,840 --> 01:46:41,840
oh

870
01:46:42,960 --> 01:46:55,840
oh yes, thank you

871
01:47:14,440 --> 01:47:23,840
oh my god

872
01:47:34,719 --> 01:47:40,800
oh my god, oh my god

873
01:47:44,360 --> 01:47:47,360
oh

874
01:47:48,080 --> 01:48:04,719
Thank you very much oh, thank you very much

875
01:48:04,719 --> 01:48:19,840
oh my god

876
01:48:58,840 --> 01:49:01,840
oh

877
01:49:12,840 --> 01:49:15,840
oh

878
01:49:40,840 --> 01:49:43,800
hum

879
01:50:08,840 --> 01:50:11,840
oh

880
01:50:36,840 --> 01:50:39,840
god

881
01:50:50,840 --> 01:50:53,840
yes

882
01:51:10,320 --> 01:51:21,840
yes, thank you

883
01:51:46,840 --> 01:51:49,840
oh

884
01:51:58,599 --> 01:52:00,960
oh my god

885
01:52:00,960 --> 01:52:17,140
oh, it's so deep, there's so much

886
01:52:56,840 --> 01:52:59,840
oh

887
01:53:10,840 --> 01:53:13,840
me

888
01:53:38,840 --> 01:53:55,840
oh, thank you

889
01:54:19,360 --> 01:54:22,710
thank you

890
01:54:34,840 --> 01:54:36,810
hum

891
01:54:48,840 --> 01:54:51,840
hum

892
01:55:02,840 --> 01:55:03,840
hum

893
01:55:14,159 --> 01:55:16,000
that was the last day emma

894
01:55:16,000 --> 01:55:18,560
performed as a submissive

895
01:55:18,560 --> 01:55:20,719
she had surpassed that life and was

896
01:55:20,719 --> 01:55:32,320
ready to evolve into something new

897
01:55:32,320 --> 01:55:34,320
I want you to know that this is not about

898
01:55:34,320 --> 01:55:35,170
your letter

899
01:55:36,400 --> 01:55:40,560
Of course it is, you're disagreeing with me

900
01:55:40,560 --> 01:55:43,599
yes ema

901
01:55:43,599 --> 01:55:45,520
You can't honestly say no

902
01:55:45,520 --> 01:55:47,119
I enjoyed every moment

903
01:55:47,119 --> 01:55:50,960
to be my dog I said

904
01:55:50,960 --> 01:55:52,470
that you could talk

905
01:55:54,400 --> 01:55:57,920
can you say thank you

906
01:55:57,920 --> 01:56:01,440
for coming back thanks for convincing

907
01:56:01,440 --> 01:56:02,800
I stop

908
01:56:02,800 --> 01:56:05,760
never in a million years did I imagine

909
01:56:05,760 --> 01:56:07,920
that this would be my reality

910
01:56:07,920 --> 01:56:11,280
which domain is submissive

911
01:56:11,280 --> 01:56:14,960
happiness lady

912
01:56:14,960 --> 01:56:17,520
You taught me that I still belong

913
01:56:17,520 --> 01:56:18,880
this world

914
01:56:18,880 --> 01:56:20,670
just not the way I found out

915
01:56:24,800 --> 01:56:43,840
Now, whatever you do, don't come

916
01:56:46,560 --> 01:56:49,679
To survive we have to let go, it's part of

917
01:56:49,679 --> 01:56:51,040
to move forward

918
01:56:51,040 --> 01:56:53,040
recognizing what no longer works

919
01:56:53,040 --> 01:56:55,280
us

920
01:56:55,360 --> 01:56:57,360
recognizing that who we were five

921
01:56:57,360 --> 01:56:58,400
years ago

922
01:56:58,400 --> 01:57:01,679
five months ago, five days ago maybe not

923
01:57:01,679 --> 01:57:03,100
be the person we are today

924
01:57:06,880 --> 01:57:08,400
life is a constant journey of

925
01:57:08,400 --> 01:57:11,360
self-discovery and evolution

926
01:57:11,360 --> 01:57:13,760
part of me wonders if I still had a hand

927
01:57:13,760 --> 01:57:15,920
in Emma's evolution

928
01:57:15,920 --> 01:57:18,080
you always hear people say that when

929
01:57:18,080 --> 01:57:19,280
someone dies

930
01:57:19,280 --> 01:57:21,040
they live in those who left

931
01:57:21,040 --> 01:57:24,239
ago and maybe this was me

932
01:57:24,239 --> 01:57:27,679
living in emma

933
01:57:36,840 --> 01:57:39,840
sir

934
01:57:39,840 --> 01:57:49,840
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